Memoir

I remember we were arm and arm.

We held each other through every storm. 

Together we were supposed to be and together would conquer every dream. 

But where am I today?

I am without you. 

All those dreams that we had dreamed, are now without you.

Our eyes no longer meet, it seems lifeless, they fall to the floor.

We no longer talk with each other, anytime the other walks through the door.

I live here now cold and alone.

In a frozen heart, in a house of stone.

I look over to see your gaze, and it’s a million miles away.

The love that warmed my soul each day, in your eyes, now just space.

Eyes that used to sparkle now cry in silent pain.

Oh, to do it all over again. 

I give almost anything to be one again.

In each other’s arms held so tight and kissed so warmly.

And here lying now next to me you are a million miles away.

Once, we would always be and would fight together until we were free.

In each other’s arms, we would long to be.

But now I am without you.

Every breath you breathed was my very breath of life.

But now those very memories cut just like a knife.

Once our love so strong stood like a stone.

But now I stand here empty. 

My day is all alone.

That you were my everything always felt true.

But now my arms are empty, my heart missing you.

We used to gaze into each other’s eyes, look up at the stars and laugh until dawn. 

Held tight by the firelight, so warm.

We were against the cold, sharing secrets still.

The morning sun shined.

So many dreams of growing old, shared when we would dance all night.

Somehow you lit up every room.

Your smile was always so bright.

You stole my heart with your very first kiss, and having you back now is my only wish.

But now I’m alone in an empty bed. 

Tears for my broken heart stain my pillow red.

That’s where I am today.

Somehow you slipped away.

Only in my broken
heart do you remain.

There’s no choice now but for me to stay…

Without you.

-Craig Carlson

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Entering into a relationship with someone knowing that it may not last forever is hard. You have to open yourself up, give yourself completely and let them know who you really are on the inside. It’s scary but it’s also beautiful because when you do that, you have no choice but to become stronger as an individual because of it.

NM